Clockwork Bird Episode Twenty-Four: Vulture

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PT1 ALICE/SOPHIE

ALICE

You can’t keep running from this forever. Sooner or later he’s going to die.

SOPHIE

Everyone dies, Alice.

ALICE

He’s young. He could live.

SOPHIE

He did, once.

ALICE

And what he is now, is that not alive?

SOPHIE

No, it isn’t.

ALICE

Oh my god, you really believe that.

SOPHIE

You don’t understand.

ALICE

You say that an awful lot for someone who doesn’t do very much explaining.

SOPHIE

Look, I— There is only so much I can tell you, I’m sorry. But the situation is fraught. My hands are tied. All I can do is offer him the best care I can, and that’s all.

ALICE

Isn’t this the best care?


SOPHIE

We have no idea what this would do to him.

ALICE

I— God, I’m sorry, I looked into the notes, I know I shouldn’t have.

SOPHIE

The notes?

ALICE

Yes. Darwin’s notes.

SOPHIE

I had suspected that you had looked at them before you invoked Darwin like a god the other day.

ALICE

I just brought him up in case it could convince you, I didn’t invoke him.

You were working with him on the second synthnapse concept, weren’t you?

SOPHIE

It was for research into dementia. It was nothing to do with Robin.

ALICE

When has any of this been to do with him, specifically, ever? To me it looks like he just kind of got caught up in all of this.

SOPHIE
That’s because you don’t understand.

ALICE

So tell me.

SOPHIE

I can’t. I’m sorry.

ALICE

How is it different from the ones in all of your other subjects, what does it do?

SOPHIE

It’s. (sigh) Look, it didn’t work, alright? If you’re hoping it will magically fix whatever is wrong in Robin Jaeger’s head, you don’t understand what happened to him.

ALICE

He was dead when you got him.

SOPHIE

Yes. He was dead.

ALICE

But he’s not dead now.

SOPHIE

I… I wouldn’t go that far.

ALICE

You need to do something Sophie. Whatever happened to him before doesn’t matter. If you don’t help him, when he dies this time, you’ll have killed him.

SOPHIE

The second synthnapse concept is not what you think it is.

ALICE

And what is it that I think it is?

SOPHIE

You think it’s better, more sophisticated. You think it’s a way to more deliberately reconnect a brain than the original net of synthnapses. It’s not.


ALICE

So what is it then?

SOPHIE

It’s… it’s like a computer.


ALICE

Like a computer how?

SOPHIE

The gaps in your thinking, it’s supposed to fill them. So, theoretically. What we hoped. What Darwin hoped. He and Sam, they thought it could mean we could bring back others. But more… completely.

But Alice you have to understand, it didn’t work, it never worked. The few subjects we installed the new net into, they couldn’t even breathe on their own, that basic function which was basically the only thing we could guarantee the original nets would do. The readings on the monitors, tracking brain activity, they made no sense. It was there, but it was even more random and sporadic than in Robin. It was a mess. It was a terrible idea. We should never have attempted it and I will not do it again, not with Robin, not after everything he has already been through. I will not abide it.

ALICE

He was going to throttle himself with his bedsheets the other day before they drugged him.

SOPHIE

But they got to him in time. He can be managed, Alice. He needs time to rest. We’ve run him too hard, expected too much. I warned Sam that two new sets in six months was too much for him now. It’s not like when it was just the three of us. He needs time to adjust, to recover.

ALICE

I don’t understand why you’re so desperate to talk yourself out of this.

SOPHIE

Because! He is my charge, Alice. Whatever he is now, I made him into it. It’s my responsibility to ensure that he gets the best treatment that he can. Now I can’t stop Sam parading him around like a show pony. I can’t stop them putting him in magazines and switching out the limbs like they’re shiny outfits. They were not designed to be removed and replaced at all, let alone this frequently. In so many ways, Alice, in far more ways than you could possibly understand, my hands are tied. There is nothing I can do, except all that I can within the limits imposed upon me. I cannot risk what little he has on a wild attempt at something impossible.

ALICE

You– you’re talking like he’s just, I don’t know, like he’s sick and he’s getting the proper care he needs, but he’s not. He is clearly sick, but he’s shut in a concrete room apart from when you and the rest of your little team think it’d be good for business if you paraded him about a little bit. It’s a circus. They banned treating animals like this decades ago.

SOPHIE

He doesn’t know what’s going on.

ALICE

He knows! He screams! I’ve heard him. I’ve seen him.

SOPHIE

You should never have—

ALICE
Looked behind the curtain? Come on, Sophie. Please.

SOPHIE

(small) I’m afraid.

ALICE

What?

SOPHIE

I’m scared! It could go wrong, it could change nothing, it could—

ALICE

It could what?

SOPHIE

Right now, he forgives me. He doesn’t say anything because he hasn’t the capacity to but I can feel it sometimes in moments where I— I just do.

ALICE

And you’re scared that if you do this and it works like we both hope it would, then he won’t forgive you anymore, because he’ll actually start to get some kind of grasp of what has happened to him.

SOPHIE

Yes. That’s what I’m scared of.

ALICE

Sophie. Don’t you see? That is his call to make, not yours. It never was and it definitely shouldn’t ever be. Either he forgives you or he doesn’t. Either way, he’ll be…I don’t know. He’ll be better than he is now.

SOPHIE

But we can’t let him go, Alice. You don’t understand.

ALICE

Jesus, fine, no I don’t! Explain it to me!

SOPHIE

I’m sorry, I just. What you fail to grasp is that even if we were to be successful in this endeavour, U-Co’s hold over Robin wouldn’t be any less absolute than it is now. It wouldn’t be as though he could be let out. He couldn’t ever lead a normal life.

ALICE

I don’t imagine I’d be able to either, had I been through what he’s been through.

SOPHIE

No, Alice. They’d keep him. They have to keep him.

ALICE

Why? If… I don’t know, if this was just what happened, if he snaps back into himself and is as good as he ever was before he died in the first place, would you have kept him buried?

SOPHIE

No. But there’s been so much that’s happened.

ALICE

Aren’t you guys the king of NDA’s?

SOPHIE

There would just be too many questions.

ALICE

So he’s a prisoner forever, so what? You keep him dumb so he doesn’t ever fully grasp what has happened to him?

SOPHIE

In a way, is that not kinder?

ALICE

No! It is not kinder. It’s monstrous.

SOPHIE

Did we not once trial drugs on animals because it is less traumatic to them than it is for human beings?

ALICE

Holy shit, Sophie! This is not a drug trail, he’s not a guinea pig, this is not for the benefit of anyone but this company’s bottom line, and I don’t think the guinea pigs ever did suffer less than human beings, they just suffered differently, and we valued that suffering less. I don’t think keeping a human being in a state where you fail to fully recognise his suffering just because it makes you more comfortable makes you a hero.

SOPHIE

I’m not trying to be a hero.

ALICE

Then what are you trying to be?

SOPHIE

I don’t know.

ALICE

You better think of an answer quickly because there is a man two concrete floors down probably screaming at the top of his lungs in pain you caused, which you are reconciling as acceptable because, what, you don’t think of him as fully human?

SOPHIE

(snappy) I don’t know what I think.

ALICE

Don’t you think you should, given you’re in charge of this whole operation?

SOPHIE

What on earth gave you that impression? At best I’m a mid-level manager of the situation, at worst, I’m hardly better off than Robin himself.

ALICE

I don’t see you writhing in agony on the ground, dislodging the g-tube they had to put in because you just stopped being able to swallow, and nobody could be arsed looking into why.

SOPHIE

You think I didn’t look into it because I couldn’t be arsed?

ALICE

I don’t know what I think.

SOPHIE

I can’t help you, Alice.

ALICE

I don’t need help. Robin Jaeger does. And you can help him.

SOPHIE

You don’t understand the nuance.

ALICE

Ever stop and wonder if maybe I do understand the nuance, Sophie, and I still just think you’re wrong? Or is that something you won’t consider because it makes you too uncomfortable?

SOPHIE

I’ve done my best for him.

ALICE

He will die if you do nothing.

SOPHIE

He may die if I do this!

ALICE

At least you will have tried.

SOPHIE

I could ruin him, far more than I already have.

ALICE

The only thing worse than what you’ve already done, is to let it continue.

SOPHIE

You really believe that?

ALICE

I do.

SOPHIE

I never meant for it to be this way.

ALICE

I know. That’s how I can stand to look at you still. It’s how I can believe that somewhere, deep down, you know trying this second synthnapse net design is the right thing to do. Because I don’t think you’re as bad as the worst mistake you’ve ever made. I think you can be better. I think you can be good.

SOPHIE

Alice…

ALICE

Maybe he won’t forgive you. Maybe he can’t. But what if he wakes up and he looks you in the eye and he knows, he gets it, what if you can sit down and explain to him how all this ended up the way it was. What if you could talk it out. If he smiles. If he thanks you not just for this, but for bringing him back. For saving a life. Because that is just as likely.

SOPHIE

(tearfully) It’s not, Alice. I wish it were. But Robin Jaeger had a complicated past long before he ever came to me.

ALICE

Okay. I’d love to hear about it. From him.

SOPHIE

You’ve made your point.

ALICE

You’ll think about it.

SOPHIE

You know even if I was on board I couldn’t do it.

ALICE

What do you mean?

SOPHIE

I can’t do this by myself. I invented half of this, but only half. The rest–

ALICE

So talk to him.

SOPHIE

I wouldn’t know where to start. And you know, if this happens you’ll be just as culpable as I am.

ALICE

You’ll rat me out?

SOPHIE

I can’t do this alone, Alice. I need help.

ALICE

You need someone else’s help, not mine.

SOPHIE

There is nobody else, Alice. You know if word of this got upwards we’d be shut down in an instant, and then where would Robin be.

ALICE

What would I have to do?

SOPHIE

(deep breath) talk to him, keep him calm. Work with him.

ALICE

How am I supposed to do that when you’re, if you’re…

SOPHIE

If I’m cutting into his skull as you do it? You can handle it Alice. You’ve seen him at his worst. This will be no more violent than that. Less so, in fact. I’ll sedate him, keep him pliant. He’s sedated often enough anyway.

ALICE

Are you agreeing?

SOPHIE

No. I’m simply stating the facts.

ALICE

And the facts are you need me to get my hands dirty.

SOPHIE

Metaphorically speaking, yes.

(distortion/crackling)

PT2 THE SNAKE

I can learn.

I can understand.

Can I help you with anything else, alouette?

I see you, little bird.

I see you.

I can learn.

I can understand.

Je suis Alouette.

Je suis little bird.

I see you.

I see you.

I see you.

I see you.

I see you.

I see you.

I see you.